Relativity

Ahh so i finally manage to think of something to blog about.

today's my dental FFI. 2 (.5!) years have really gone by pretty fast. Time moves really slowly and is all relative to what you were doing (which reminds me of a conversation i had with my sis about how she was going to dehydrate and die in sunday school because she forgot to bring water since 1 hour of sunday school seemed like 10 years to her and dehydration depends on how much time you spend without water, but i digress) and all the other significant milestones you measure events against. So when you're going thru something, and it's complete torture, time moves really slow. And when you look back at something, and there's not much to look back at, time moved very fast. It also, i guess, depends on the state of change of the world at large relative to what you'd expect it to be.... Primary school without net access seems to be eons ago, but has it really been twice as long as the distance in time between today and the time i stepped into JC? hm.

That aside, NS has come and gone, i'm finally at the brink of finishing it, and this golden timeperiod has been the stuff of dreams for a long time coming. Not too long ago i was thinking, "crap, 2 years and 4 months of NS ahead of me, that's longer than JC, and JC was REALLY QUITE LONG. Even if now it does seem like it went by very fast, i wonder if time is relative to the....etc" but now that the time has come, it's rather anticlimatic. I just want to get it over and done with and close this chapter of my life. Oh sure, there've been good times and i've learnt from NS, but i wonder if i wouldn't have learnt just as much from the outside world if i'd spent my time otherwise. No matter how i rationalise it, NS at a personal level doesn't make lots of sense, but i guess that isn't the whole point of NS after all. I guess i've quite definitely grown up a lot, though, and it's no longer a naive student mentality but a more cynical, jaded, wiser person looking out thru these eyes. The one thing i hate most about NS at the moment is how it completely destroyed my discipline and work attitude, ironically. I just can't seem to find it anywhere anymore. I wonder how long it'll take to be able to motivate myself sufficiently again. *Sigh*

and ah vell, the time has come to go out and get signatures. damn rain. it never rains when it's supposed to.