All is not gold that glitters

So it's the end of 2003, and true to sentimental form, we need one of those moments where your entire past one chronological year of life flashes by your eyes again! For no other reason than that this day, this day, is a special day marking the last day when you can automatically write 03 in the date and not have to curse and swear and cross it out with a red pen and countersign.

So much has happened over the past year, and yet so little. A year for breaking the boundaries of belief and ability (passing SOC, yay) (LEGALLY too.) a year of milestones, a year for readjustment, and most of all, a year for growing up. Nominally, or otherwise. A year of high emotions. And a year of lows, too. So what came out of it in the end? Sure, lots of eye-opening life lessons and experiences, and yes, astoundingly, i have army to thank for that. Two major works of video editting and animation, with a mass audience. Thousands of conversations about life, leadership (or lack thereof), religion. Old friendships forged anew. The crownless again shall have hair. Lifestyles changed in the blink of an eye.

So what comes out of it all? The realisation that so much in life is uncontrollable after all. Too many variables in the equation for any sort of vague long-term predictability. Too few certainties. Change is inevitable, and really, the only way to deal is to flow with it, when your fin is too small to swim against it. You just have to be able to sense the ebb and flow of it all, to know when the time comes to exert an influence for change, and when to just let go. But if we're all so powerless, then what's the point of living? And i start to sense the beginnings of another argument about determinism forming from the convoluted thoughts that i usually post because i need somewhere to ramble before i crystalise my opinions and direction, so i'll end with a wish for all my dear blog readers:

May this season bring the gift of Hope. Hope, which can survive where joy cannot, where love and peace are but fleeting images. Hope, because the lack thereof would be despair and non-action. Hope, because everything starts somewhere. Hope, because it is the foundation for Faith. Happy new year all, may this one be hopefully better than the last.